Sunday, December 30, 2012

PP Power Jam #9: I Wanna Be Loved

Nuff said. Jah.

Daily Deep Dose

Appreciate your uniqueness. Once you lead your life with confidence and are no longer slave to the notion of control, you open yourself to so much more than you have ever known before. Share your talents, for they were given to you to bestow on the world. Through expression, you will find your true soul.

2013 - The Year of Infinite Potential

Lead forward, one foot in front of the other. Stand with grounded confidence, becoming the example of what you seek in this life, both inside your heart and outside in perceived reality. Welcome change as if you were constantly birthing new opportunity. Be inspiring, that way you can have the power to manifest the experiences that turn you on all by yourself. Seek art in everything you do and come in contact with beauty with reverence. Be certain that after every storm settles, the sun will shine bright again. Everything that comes will eventually go, but you will remain your own estate to hold.

Make 2013 a year to welcome potential revealing itself through working hard without resistance to come what may. Control should not drive your soul. This is a time to get moving, move your body, move your mind, move your life. No more lazing around, no more waiting for happiness to come, no more seeking affirmation about you from those around you. No more waiting for permission to be free, or loose control. It's time to really get to know you. Here comes new horizons, new lessons and new adventures.

"Follow the Red Road," Lee Claremont, acrylic/canvas
Always remember the love you have, even if it is no longer yours to hold. Instead of being negative in your thoughts or drowning in past sufferings, send forgiveness and pure love to those who have hurt you and pack your tears away. Smile knowing that you now know something many don't know. Make commitments that lead to the betterment of your health and your awareness - no longer suffocating things, instead only maintaining a loose hold. Make yourself stronger than ever before. Happiness finds itself when you are grateful for simply having the opportunity to be your own person - to follow the path of enlightened existence outside all the emotional rubbish, sketchy behaviours and inflicting pains. Look deep inside and graduate what you knew, to what you now know. As Whitney sings, "learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all."

Friday, December 28, 2012


I am reflecting on my writing today - realizing that it has been 7 years since I started The House of Provocation, and then was first published in Xtra - with many more blessings that followed! Thanks for reading, feeling, loving and experiencing my life and passions with me - I send love and light!

Daily Deep Dose

The moon rises within me. She howls desire and I submit to her glory. There is no time to waste, she's shining full inside me.


Thursday, December 27, 2012

PP Power Jam #8: Baby, Baby, Baby

When I first fell in love major with TLC, it was because of this song. I still love this jam today!

Daily Deep Dose

Everything comes naturally if you allow it. We all spend so much time caught in fear. Whether it is in fear of change or loss, the fact is that change and loss happen. Peace rises above thought to understand despite resistance, sadness and unrest, things will unfold as they are meant to. Mold your reality through awareness and give peace a chance.

Daily Deep Dose

Sorry, I have been busy and forgot to post these earlier!

Stimulate yourself in all ways, spirit, mind and body. Be inspired by the beauty that exists without effort everyday. Recognize that anything is possible if you manifest desire. Sexiness is when your have the confidence to seek what provokes you and express yourself freely. Be the inspiration you seek.

Merry Christmas! Remember today is not about giving or receiving gifts, it is about celebrating the abundance of love in your life. Surround yourself with family and friends and cherish each interaction. With them share joy, goodness and light!

Monday, December 24, 2012


In life there are always infinite possibilities. You never know what is around the corner until you get there and really look. The temptation comes to possess yourself to feel safe. But self-safe consists of defining attachments to memories, and memories are mostly haunting and lingering. You are no apparition present from past moments. You can't change anything now even if you resist the penetration of the brand new you. Things usually don't go the way of control, chill the fuck out and close your eyes. Keep moving in faithful grace listening to your hearts cravings.

Desire myself. What is meant to be I am.

Amita Bhatt , DESIRE. DESIRE, oil on canvas, 2009.
The woman in the mirror stares back at me with every sensation. She has made mistakes but learned from each and every one - her soul stained like a wine spill on an antique rug. Inspiration may escape her in flighty thoughts, but the truth remains there is no road to travel except her own. The people met along the way will all come for a reason, even the ones that runaway. Deep inside they will feel her like a temptress at night. There is no mistaken she will be there conjuring up love's witchcraft, caressing her rotund and supple brown breasts under the cover of moonlight.

Daily Deep Dose

She didn't know she was walking through her life not fully awake. Then the apple hit her heart. She knew to rise towards shedding selfish & immature desires that no longer served her wellness. To forgive herself in the ways she forgives others, though at times she wished she knew then what she knows now. Patience was no longer acceptable as a restless virtue, evolution tugged at her soul's clockwork.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Seek yourself within yourself. Stand outside yourself & witness you, as the world sees you. Do you like what you see? Do you like how you act? Do you believe in your worth and potentiality? Only react to that, placing emphasis on examining emotional baggage & releasing all heavy thoughts. Then focus on being happy in that moment, no longer a victim of the past. Trust the Universe will spin your life right.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Rather than resisting, persist. As conscience energy we are able to feel out through our senses. Utilize them, they are intuition for direction on your path, what is still ahead to experience. Ultimately try not attach to anything that pulls you away from being human. Love is the only law of life: expansion, charity, good will, family, knowledge and soul searching. Free yourself.

Friday, December 21, 2012

Happy Holidays from Neefah and Kali!

N and K told me to share this pic - they said that 2013 is going to be no less than purrfect! Happy Holidays all - meow!

Daily Deep Dose

The human ego is stronger than ever. We think we're able to control what comes & goes, while in fact the order of the universe has been performing harmoniously far before our arrival. A flower doesn't need to be told to unfold, it sprouts intuitively when it's time to grow. Humanity it's time to grow from what we know: without respect for our planet, soon we'll have no place to call a home. An awakening has come: listen, take action.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Though I am not sure what's next, I believe the water will wash away my mistakes and carry me closer to home. In this sacred space I can strive to rest my mind & listen to the beating of my heart like a steady ritualistic beat. Here I can feel safe from the pain of outside uncertainties, the lack of mercy granted by another's red hands. Peace shall bring me home, as the waves of mind settle at shore and I realize to strive for more.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Love you Crazy

Make me float, don't let me sink to the depths below my own error of judgment. I don't even know what I am doing you see, I am much like a fool when it comes to hiding how I feel for you. It is written all over my face - my smile reflects your unwithering beauty, the purest energy. I don't even know how to express what you do to me, our chemistry seems satisfaction guaranteed, without worry; I know your worth. I am waiting for you. I am ready to hear you call me the one you have been waiting/searching for. I value the thought of sharing the world with you. I wanna hold on to you tight and never let go. You will be my Queen and I will be your Queen - together we can go on and on and on towards good feelings, showing them we will stay strong in each passing moment, now and forever. Sweet baby, I wanna love you crazy. I wanna make you weep tears of joy when we collide under the moonlight, follow you towards the glorious sunlight. Make love until forever, even when this life is over. My sorrow will all be put to rest when your lips whisper, "let me cherish you. You're my soul's companion."

Daily Deep Dose

When the year is coming to an end, you can't help but look back at all the moments and experiences that have come to you. You can either look back fondly at all these moments, even those that hurt or seemed like they did not fit in with your "plan" but rest assured that your past does not define what is ahead. You do. Open your heart.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Today I resign to knowing that the Universe starts within me. I must find peace inside me to create peace in the world. I must forgive with compassion, love without fear & accept every lesson that comes to me is for the betterment of all. I will not accept that I am less than blessed.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

As the seasons of your life change, people will come and go. A true friend will support you through the rough patches, celebrate your growths and allow you to be yourself, calling you beautiful through your flaws. The power of true friends in not measured in quantity but quality. Give to these special friends, all that they give to you. Nothing can replace the power of this love.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Perception is an active state of well-being. People do not fail at anything, rather the Universe awakens us towards necessary growths for a better, more conscious version of ourselves to emerge. Change can be freighting, but when we trust the journey, we accept change is an ally not a punishment. All of a sudden it becomes less about what we think we had and more about making magic in that moment.

I never wanted anything from you. Happiness now. I have never wanted anything but love. She is here.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

There is so much power in quiet. Quiet allows you to visualize the love that will come to be, to dream the ideas that will come to life, to believe that you have the power to manifest any passion or hope you may feel. Quiet allows you to listen to your heart and know that you are indeed alive and full of energy to give to the world.  

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Why do people fear aging? Growing older is a beautiful process, through which we gain perspective on both ourselves and the world around us. In many cultures age is a mark of honour and prestige - modern culture focuses on youth to make us consumers & makes us feel useless without youth. To me age is fine, like a full-bodied & refined wine. Be proud of aging, for with age you realize what really matters: family, friends, change, strength & peace. Love yourself.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Mature Soul

Action begets change, not reaction. For many years I had lived my life unaware of the forces of the Universe that surround me. Sure I had read many horoscopes and books on astrology, however I had not resigned my faith to not knowing what lay ahead for me, my destiny. I thought that if I would show myself to others completely, open my heart and goodness to those around me, surely I would receive happiness with security. This notion was flawed - I was lacking common sense, a more mature and learned outlook on life.

I have always been aware of the power of love as a driving force in my life, but today I recognize that it is much more sacred than I have given it credit for. I must adjust my perceptions, I must respect love with much more gentleness and tenderness, rather than throwing it out the front door to the highest bidder in my perceptions hold. When another forsakes me, when a change comes that leaves me feeling uncomfortable and confused, when a job does not appreciate me, I will always have love as my invisible cloak to pull me through adversity. Instead of harping on what is past, claiming myself to be a victim of external forces, I would rather be a gift to the world of a forever present faith.

Love is not only in me to give, it is in me to nurture my own being, my own happiness, my own curiosity, my own growth. People are not to control, lovers are not worthy of begging for affection - let it all go. When I close my eyes at night, I may not have a lover by my side, but that is not what truly makes me feel complete - I see for unwiser me, the idea of love was manifested through a lover, someone to share life with, my strength, my dreams. A more mature soul, now I know true love resides within the soul. A quiet, intangible awareness that even if things were to change and all securities stripped away, I could turn light inwards and remain in faith.

Now it is my turn to assimilate growth, to read, meditate and open the re-focused eyes of my heart.

Daily Deep Dose

I thought I was grown-up; I was wrong. Through reflection I found myself waiting for fulfillment: for another to love me endlessly, to carry my hopes and sense of stability. It took a life altering event to forever change me. You see, everything is fleeting in life: lovers, jobs, security, possession - but through connectivity to the Universe and non-judgement of others, I can achieve peace. I'm not a victim, I am a creator of love and preserver of faith. I Am God.

Monday, December 10, 2012

PP Power Jam #7: Brand New Me

This song is my absolute current mirror. With gratitude I listen, feel and process this each day, to remind me that everything is as it should be - I am awakening. 

Daily Deep Dose

Every time you find yourself falling back into past emotions, actions and patterns that are not healthy, recognize that only you have the ability to break free of this captivity. The first step to growth is awareness - now that you are aware of your emotions and grievances, they can no longer dominate you. Take responsibility for them, as they are yours to guide. Recognize, witness, experience, release and move on.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Be grateful for all the present people and moments that reflect how blessed you are. Blessings can come in all shapes and sizes, but they never are absent from our lives. Tell those who are there for you 'thank you' from the bottom of your heart. Be kind to each other.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Send those who have hurt you, abandoned you, turned their eyes blind to you, love and affection with good intentions each day. There is no point in carrying anger towards those in your past, they are already far gone. This is your opportunity to move forward stronger and learn what may have not been found if things remained the same. Tis the season to surround yourself with joy and love.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Never stop wanting to grow, never stop wanting to know. The power we hold as enlightened beings is that of transformation. Turn what looks like a negative event, into a positive force of transformation. Learn from the past, honour the present and you will have a bright future!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Day by day I grow a little bit bolder, I breath a little deeper. I consciously try and let go of what is no longer worthy of my open heart. At moments I still succumb to overwhelming sadness, but I try and remember that brighter and wiser skies lay ahead. Day by day, step by step, my faith in love remains.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

If you take the time to sit in quiet and listen to your heart, you will realize that you're aware; aware of what is best for you and what is unhealthy for you. Suffering becomes a painful and redundant path, yet love opens you up to peace. Try each day to live in/with peace.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Daily Deep Dose

Sometimes it takes a deep heartache to really wake up to the truth, and this realization may be bitter to swallow. Instead of fixating on the idea of what you thought you did have, focus on all the opportunity you have to grow and realize your true worth. The universe will only save you, not abandon you.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Giving and Receiving

I have spent my life very fixated on giving. That is to say, I have always felt compelled to share myself with others, my beliefs, my opinions and my feelings with an all access pass. Giving affirmed my identity and purpose. It was only until a few weeks ago in a conversation that someone asked me how it is that I receive from others: I was stomped. Sure I have an abundance of love in my life, sure I am grateful for all that I am blessed with, but I had never thought of myself as needing to receive. I had always stimulated my own needs and growths, but I began to see that perhaps this approach was flawed. I then understood that I needed what I deserved in order to keep fueling what it is that I had to share. What goes around comes around, what is given should be received thankfully and returned willingly.

In order to give you must receive. This law is as real as karma and dharma - the universe communicating from vessel to vessel through exchange. I must be willing to share my water with my brothers and sisters, but they must be willing to do the same for me - or we may both drown from thirst. I can now see that it is only natural that I have expectations of receiving what it is that I need to push me into awareness. Knowing the difference between what I believed I needed and what it is that I really do need has brightened the night sky.

Many of us live our lives with blinders on, unaware of all that signs that are staring at us in the eyes. A sign came to me that if I kept expending myself at the current pace, it would be no time before I would fall flat on my face with little ability to share myself with anyone at all. Energy depletion would be inevitable. You see, I have always truthfully given my willingness to give and I now welcome familiar spirits into my life, but now I need to learn to receive as well.

Too many humans go around draining others forces of life and give little in exchange. A few pretty words and a mason jar full of good intentions don't go very far. To receive the love you deserve you must give it equally, to acquire knowledge you must share it fruitfully. Eventually the truth will always find a way to you, as it does not hide. Abundance awakens through always balancing giving and receiving.

Daily Deep Dose

The only true power we have resides within. Thoughts can torment by identifying with what has come to pass, emotions can sprout unnecessary suffering and compromise our ability to be present. With each day try and soften attaching thoughts and emotions to your sense of self. Instead use your thoughts and emotions as intuition to change your life.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Limitless Love

I never knew the power of change until it all went away from me. All the false stability that I had accumulated to make me feel worthwhile was stripped from me. What was left were fragments of pathos prophecy, lingering like a haze of sorrow over me. Feeling overwhelmed and physically exhausted, at first I had no motivation to move beyond the pain and disappointment, the fear of change. A prisoner in my own mind, I flagellated my purpose in hopes of regaining myself.

Today I woke up feeling like a brand new woman. I no longer feel comfortable sitting in purgatory waiting for deliverance and purpose. I am ready to leave behind a carnation of me that was no longer wise for me to be, evolution has touched inside of me. I feel alive to a different energy, my sense of awareness and presence is no longer able to be stifled by invested expectations and little true patience. I have grown much braver than I use to be. No matter what disappointments await me in hindsight, I will close my eyes and soften the negative thoughts in my mind . Through my emotions run deep, I see now how they can lead me transiently away from potentiality. I will respect myself by not spending my emotions without total awareness that they deserve disclosure. I am not seeking desperate love anymore. You see, now anything is possible for me. I can now love much deeper, kiss much sweeter and became a more noble love priestess.