The Art of Me

Now is not the time to fear, or be afraid. Now is the time to grow and vitalize true worth and potential. I am utterly blessed, and I owe no one anything but myself the diligence of realizing my greatest potential. I am not anyone's toy, I am not anyone's ball to a chain. I am realizing that for so long I have held inside my talents, my freedoms, the things that you claimed to value that you quickly vanished once you tasted the fruit of my ripe wisdom.

I know who you are, I have met ones like you. Those who rape you, invade you, open you and then leave you to be ravaged. What you don't know is that I am much more aware of you, then you are of yourself. I see that you are insecure, conniving and that you control those around you by making them feel empathy for your woes.

I am not afraid of you, for you will never be me. I do not wish to be you. I am ready to fulfill my destiny, for I am told by the astrologer that a change is close, one that would push me into my complete womanhood. She has arrived. I open the door to let her in. 

Goodbye to holding myself back, to playing it safe and knowing what is next. Hello to the challenges that lay ahead, the new opportunities and the chance to finally say goodbye to you.

NO H8

My partner Caitlin McGrath & I support NO H8.

If anyone out there needs a friend, a shoulder to cry on, or just someone to listen, please email me at thunderpussgeisha@gmail.com.

Our photo in support of the NO H8 Campaign: http://www.noh8campaign.com/

For those struggling with thoughts of suicide: http://www.thetrevorproject.org/

Photo by Simone Maurice. Make-up by Daniela Saldias.

Queer in Toronto

My picture, as well as my beautiful partner's are featured in the Queer in Toronto photography exhibit. This landmark show representing queer women and trans folks in the Greater Toronto Area will run until November 24th at the Gladstone Gallery located in the Gladstone Hotel.

I will soon follow with a link to an article on Queer in Toronto that will appear in Xtra. However, I thought I  share my featured photgraph with you lovelies.

Many thanks for our beautiful friends Taryn Pimento and Margo Foster for this amazing privilege.

Stay yourself and keep the love alive.

Happy Diwali - 2067 is here Hindu homies!

Best wishes to all and have a FAB year!!! Let there be light!

Freedom to Fall

Life can be a scary process. Learning to be aware is alarming and the issue of  freedom is never not in question. Whether we belong to ourselves or whether we chop ourselves into little pieces, then neatly package ourselves with bows and place our souls for sale, we still have to carry value for ourselves for what's inside the box. We are our own to unwrap. We are all made of great beauty. Some are thought prettier, some are simply smarter - but we all have worth.

I have learned that though life can be care-free, I prefer to care.

We can walk away knowing that we chose the way we thought was better, only to find out that we hesitated about change. Growing is an illusion, we must simply fulfill our destiny fearlessly.

While some maintain that life is unfair and cruel, we have the choice to achieve and rise above our challenges, personal and professional. No one said that working hard was easy. No one claimed that it would be clear to get too the truth.

Take a silent moment, feel breath enter and then release - the solution to everything is let it go if it hurts. Don't run away from pain because it is an inescapable reality.

Millions of people will never know the power of love to heal, to release the disappointments in tears, the pain it took to grow more.

When we are younger it is much easier to identify growth - we grow taller, grow hair in inconvenient places, everyone tells us that we look bigger. We do not stop growing even as adults, nor should we. If something falls from reach, we must grow a longer reach.

Keeping the faith is often a test of our strength to believe in embracing the unknown valleys that lay ahead. There is light even in the darkest of places, just look.

Aphordite's Metamorphoses

Times may be unsettled in our growth, we may wave along like a ship at sea. Remember you can always depend on my love, no matter how far from shore we may be. It feel conflicted when I see you in pain, with a kind of energy which feels drained. If I could, I would, kiss all your worries away, remind you like a bird in your ear that everything will be ok. Stay a while more and I will prove to you that I am not like a leaf in the wind. I don't wanna fly away from you, simply just change colours with you. By your humble side I shall follow you into the ocean of love's sea.

Ill Nana in Xtra

Come check out and support Ill Nana if you are in the T-Dot! Fresh Blood is a series dedicated to emerging choreographers, only the best.

See my piece on them here and visit Harbourfront Centre website for more information.

Cuba 2010

If perfection is grace, than here in this land I have found this space. When clouds appear, they never stay for long. The sky may open up to release rain, but the rain is unlike any I have ever felt before. It renews you, it is warm and full of love and life. Just like the people I have met here in Cuba, each day I spend here feels kind and inspirational. Waking up to look outside the window to the glow of the magnificent sun, watching the palm trees dance and fresh coconuts hang from the limbs of their hearts. This is a state of constant great, for if you are here you can't help but smile at the marvel of Mother Nature's creationism and Father Oceans limitlessness of maintaining life. I wish all Westerners could experience a moment of time here, for I think it would make magnetic, frivolous worries disappear. Everything is more beautiful than the capture of  words or the snap of a picture- you can't smell the air this way, nor feel the mist of a tropical rain fall om the surface of your skin. If the sky is grey, the warmness of the people and their personality distract any feelings of grumpiness and charge a patience and promise that soon enough the sun will return to smile on the land. The rhythm of the music inspires smiles all around, the motioning of hips swaying from side-to-side resembles watching a penny circle around a well. This alive paradise is where you can find natures perfection, peace and inherent happiness through the way that life is lived each day. Thank you for the memories, forever they will stay.